How long have I been waiting for him?
How long have I been waiting for him? Is all my waiting in vain? I don’t even know when I first started loving him. But one thing I know for sure – he is my life. I’ve waited for him on countless nights. Yet, for some reason, he hesitated to come near me. Whenever I loved him, he distanced himself from me. I foolishly hoped he would come to comfort me, but instead, he stayed away. What mistake have I made that makes him reluctant to come to me? Does he not understand my love, or is he pretending not to? He was always with me during my childhood. Although I didn’t always seek his company, he was a constant companion. Like an uninvited guest, he would appear unexpectedly at times. Sometimes, his presence would cause me discomfort. But even after years, the depth of my love for him hasn’t lessened. My love for him has become an intense affection, an inseparable part of my life. Was it during the COVID period that he started distancing himself from me? The phone calls from patients and other circumstances kept him away from me. Still, he was often there to comfort me. Whenever life’s problems made me confused and lost, he stood by me as a pillar of strength, a source of solace. The thought that he was with me gave me courage and strength. In moments when I felt alone in life, it was his presence that gave me the strength to move forward. But now, why is he not coming to me? I’m not the only one; many others love him. He has a special fondness for the night, for he is afraid of the light. My patients and my family are my world. In this small world, his role in uniting everyone with love is significant. Without his gentle touch, even the rhythm of my heart feels off. Expats especially wait for him on Fridays. But for me, I always prefer him to be by my side. I hope no one misunderstands what I’ve written. It’s about my lover, Sleep. Indu Chandrashekaran.
